Sunday, August 31, 2008

It's Amazing.

Today has been one of the best days of my life. I don't know how to explain it, but God filled my life with so much peace tonight. Everything I am doing feels like it has a purpose and I'm so happy that God is letting me know that He is there and I am here with purpose. God has a plan for my life and I'm filled with endless excitement about following Him.

God put me on this planet so that I might... be bold and joyful in His name.

All I need

Left my fear by the side of the road
Hear You speak
Won't let go
Fall to my knees as I lift my hands to pray
Got every reason to be here again
Father's love that draws me in
And all my eyes wanna see is a glimpse of You

All I need is You
All I need is You Lord
Is you Lord

One more day and it's not the same
Your spirit calls my heart to sing
Drawn to the voice of my Saviour once again
Where would my soul be without Your Son
Gave His life to save the earth
Rest in the thought that You're watching over me

All I need is You
All I need is You Lord
Is You Lord

You hold the universe
You hold everyone on earth
You hold the universe
You hold
You hold

All I need is You
All I need is You Lord
Is You Lord

Exodus 14:14 "The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still"

That has been my motto recently. It was written on my bunk at work crew by a girl named Lo who was on my bed before me. It was a gift.

Saturday, August 30, 2008

neon cross

God has blessed me with difficult people and difficult situations. You might not think "blessed" is the right word, but I do.

Spiritual maturity at my young age is rare. Actually, spiritual maturity at any age is rare. I'm reading an amazing book called unChristian and I seriously recommend it to people strong in their faith and people not so strong. It talks a lot about the 3% of the US population with a "Christian wold-view" and how lame that small percentage is! The reason Christianity has such a bad rep is because of the other 97% of people who call themselves Christians but don't live out their faith.

I give this analogy a lot, someone awesome told it to me and it really hit home. If you really, truly believed that I was going to punch you in the face you would react, right? You would block it or dodge it or hit me back or do something. Most people wouldn't just sit there and let me punch their lights out.
In the same way, if you really, truly believed that Jesus Christ died for all the sins of humanity and if you really, truly believed that every single person on this earth is imperfect and is infected with sin with no way out except through Him and He gave up his life for you to live eternally in heaven.... you would react, right? You wouldn't just sit there, I know it.


I know I'm not perfect. I know I can never live up to God's awesome standards and that no matter how hard I try I will keep on sinning. But God is bigger than all our imperfections. He calls us saints and He wants us to live up to that. If you ask, He will forgive. He wants to see us succeed and follow His path of righteousness.


I've always known that I am so blessed in my life, but recently I've just been realizing how much awesome stuff God's been doing in my life.

I'm so thankful to have been able to leave for a month to serve God with every waking second there. It was awesome to feel what it was like to be surrounded by Christ-loving people for 4 weeks straight. I now know that I don't need to lower my standards at all and that people out there feel the same way I do. I made friends that I will never forget and I have so much love for the family I made there!

Coming home from a completely Jesus-centered environment back into our messed up culture has been really hard on me. It's almost like I'm experiencing culture shock? Thankfully, God had blessed me with AMAZING friends to get me through it. Recently I have been becoming closer with people that I feel I can completely relate. Not just "relate to" in our shallow society's way of relating by hating, but relating on a deeper level of things that really matter. Talking with someone about deeper questions about life and God and finding compatibility in our views is so awesome.

A lot of people are talking to me about leaving for a month and about how loooong that is, but reallly, a month isn't even that long. Plus, I came home with an experience I'll never forget and friends that will be in my life for eternity, and nothing at home changed.

Just some thoughts.

Also, I love television.

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Thursday, August 28, 2008

happy crappy

I got home from Woodleaf a few days ago. I can't even begin to blog about it because I could never sum up everything I learned, experienced and felt up there.

I hate being a disappointment to people or letting anyone down. I feel like that's all I've been and done since I got home.