Thursday, March 26, 2009


I am so happy right now. God's hand has been all over my life and I hate how I miss that so easily. I have been so blessed and I am thankful.

I'm trying not to stress over anything. Meaningless, vanity, that's all this world consists of. There is nothing to be stressed about. If being real with someone means hurting their feelings, then that is alright. The truth is 100% always better than even the smallest lie. I have met someone I can be completely honest with and he is completely honest with me. He makes me want to be a better person and encourages me like crazy. I am blessed.

In stopping trying so hard to make everything work, I have realized that the most simple things are the most amazing things. When you meet someone and things just don't work, don't force anything no matter how much you think you want to like them. When you meet someone who fits perfectly with you, nothing is forced about it. There are no bad feelings involved. There is no confusion. You just know, I guess.

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Happy Birthday, Jennifer

Dear Jen,
I love you so much. You are so good to me. God placed us perfectly in each others' lives exactly when we both needed a good friend. You constantly challenge me to think deeper about things and for that I am so grateful. I support you in everything you want to do. Let's continue to be real together.
Love, Kelsey.

remember the best show ever at the Alley when it was just pure dance before that and the Clinic closed down?
remember when there was a couch in the middle of the freeway? and in the middle of that alley where we took pictures in santa ana?
remember the first time we saw Eric at starbucks and how it's now a reoccurring, happy event?
remember all the times we have met great people, like that artist by gypsy den and that photographer by the circle?
remember when I ran that red light at the circle on accident hahaha.
remember all the people who have come in and out of our lives and we are the only ones that have stayed constant?

Tuesday, March 17, 2009


You can't make other people think like you. You can't make people see what you see. Knowing a lot of musicians, I have been thinking a lot about their reasons behind playing. Do you play for yourself, to affect others, to spread a message of some kind? I know that there are so many people around this earth that think like me and have similar thoughts as me. I pray for them. I pray that they be encouraged in everything they do. All a musician can do is put their music, their soul out there. Musicians really are so vulnerable. When someone makes something that is so beautiful to them, there are always people who will be disgusted by it. No one thinks the same or has the same taste in anything. Compatible tastes are so important in any relationships. Even respect of others tastes are important. Compromise is important too. Some people are so full of pride that they can't let someone else get their way. I pray for them. I know I act that way sometimes and I pray that I don't.

What can you control? Yourself. Pray about everything else. Worrying about anything won't get you anywhere. Just pray.


This blog is dedicated to Becca because she told me I need to get back into writing these. Called out hard! But I needed it (:

Haha! So, I am ridiculously filled with SO MUCH JOY right now. My back is killing me, but I know that God is taking care of me. Tonight I hung out with Calvin at the library to buckle down and get some work done. We did, but then our ADD kicked in and we strayed our thoughts from our work and started talking about some cool stuff. I have been realizing lately that God is using my past mistakes and my testimony in positive ways. There really is good that comes out of every single situation that happens, God makes it that way. Even when you think the worst thing in the world just happened, I know that God will use it to make some good come out of it! I am NOT saying that God makes bad things happen; I'm saying that if you let Him, God will transform the bad into so much good!

Recently I have felt led to do missions. This is something that God has really put on my heart. At first I was looking into mission trips through different organizations .... but recently I have been looking at my call in a completely different light! I am so stoked!!!! "We don't just go to church, we are the church." We don't have to go out to some obscure 3rd world country to do missions or to evangelize. That is needed, yes, but think of all the things in your community that need help! I am so excited to be where I am right now and to know the people I know. God will use you wherever you are and I want you to realize that!!! God is using you in every situation. I mess up every day but I know that God has so much love for me and for you, even and especially in our imperfections. I am stoked. Let's just love each other, mannnnnn. I know this amazing guy named Jesus who has completely transformed my life into something completely and constantly joyous. If you are feeling down, pray about it. Let God take the stress off your hands. Jesus is the only one who will completely satisfy your life. All these worldly things, they are so good in the moment. But if you're sick of being let down and tired of being stressed and sad over the things and feelings of this world, let Jesus take care of it. He loves you so much and wants you to know Him! Getting to know Jesus has been the best time of my life, and I want others to experience this amazing life too.

I love you

Peace sucka free sundae!

Wednesday, March 11, 2009


Travis took that picture of me on the beach with his fish eye. It was a good day.

It's funny how some people you see every day and never notice them or speak to them, and others you get up the guts to talk to and they end up being in your life forever. It makes me want to talk to everyone.

Recently I've been really depressed, but not in a worldly depressed way. I am still full of so much joy, but joy and feelings of depression can happen at the same time sometimes. It's weird how that can happen. I'm not sad because of myself or because of anything I can really control at all; I'm depressed because we live in a sad world. Our world has blown so many things out of proportion and has made so many things "okay." Every day I am surrounded by so much negative energy and that makes me so sad!!!!!! I want everyone to be happy and positive!! That's something completely out of my control and that makes me depressed. All I can do is pray about these things. One thing God has really been teaching me lately is that prayer works, it REALLY works!!! He's also been teaching me that I am so foolish. Does the realization of this foolishness make me wiser? I do not know. I'll just pray.

I pray that I can be a positive light. I pray that my amazing friends be encouraged. I pray for my cousin as she makes difficult decisions. I pray for you reading this that you will pray too. I pray that we can learn to ask God what to pray for, because God will not say yes to prayers that do not further His Kingdom. I pray for wisdom for me, for you, for Obama, for my wonderful friends.

Today I had a chance to look back on how I used to live my life as I had good talks with a good friend. I am so thankful for how God is transforming me and using me after the sin my life was stuck in and is still struggling with.

Psalms 43:5
Why am I discouraged?
Why is my heart so sad?
I will put my hope in God!
I will praise him again—
my Savior and my God!

Thursday, March 5, 2009



where do you spend yours?

Do you ever think about how a minute is 60 seconds? You can easily count that. Every second you count is a second closer to the end. LIVE IT