Well, tomorrow is the big day. I'm leaving for a whooole month and I am definitely ready to leave. I can't wait! I am full of excitement but I'm missing out on getting to know people and hanging out with people which I'm bummed about.
If you want to keep in contact with me pleeeeease write me letters!! It would be so amazing to hear from you and I would love to write back!!!!!!
Kelsey Waldron
Young Life's Woodleaf
P.O. Box 397
Challenge, CA 95925
I love and miss you already!!!<33333
Friday, July 25, 2008
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
I'm leaving!!!
On Saturday I begin a 12 hour journey to my destination in northern California where I'll be staying for a month! I'm going to a Young Life camp called Woodleaf to serve in fellowship with other high schoolers and I'm beyond excited.
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Monday, July 21, 2008
FAIL
"You're too retarded for gears. You need a fixed or a single speed because gears are too complicated for you, for most people it's the other way around."
I can derail any chain you have on your 10 or 12-speed bicycle without even trying hard; It's a gift.
I can derail any chain you have on your 10 or 12-speed bicycle without even trying hard; It's a gift.
Saturday, July 19, 2008
Realization:
I like getting to know people. I love meeting new people and making new friends, absolutely love it. People are so awesome and I love how people all think different thoughts about the same things. Opinions are so great, I can't believe sometimes how God gave everyone the ability to think for themselves.
I feel like I enjoy getting to know people because I am on an endless search to find more people who just get me. Honestly, I know one person. We are friend soul mates. Froul mates, if you will. Every person in the world has potential to be a soul mate in one form or another. It freaks me out that I let people pass me in the street without getting to know them. Those people just walking by could relate to me on so many levels and I'll never even know because we will never see each other again, let alone share our thoughts.
So, I think I am getting annoyed a lot recently because so many people are letting down my expectations. I don't think that these expectations are right for me to have and I don't believe they are really attainable, but I see people throw their morals out the window and that makes me sad. I see people settle for less than what they deserve and that makes me sad.
I have a few people in mind that live way past my ridiculous expectations and I hope that we do connect on that level. More people to nothing party with is all I want. Nothing party fever!!!
I feel like I enjoy getting to know people because I am on an endless search to find more people who just get me. Honestly, I know one person. We are friend soul mates. Froul mates, if you will. Every person in the world has potential to be a soul mate in one form or another. It freaks me out that I let people pass me in the street without getting to know them. Those people just walking by could relate to me on so many levels and I'll never even know because we will never see each other again, let alone share our thoughts.
So, I think I am getting annoyed a lot recently because so many people are letting down my expectations. I don't think that these expectations are right for me to have and I don't believe they are really attainable, but I see people throw their morals out the window and that makes me sad. I see people settle for less than what they deserve and that makes me sad.
I have a few people in mind that live way past my ridiculous expectations and I hope that we do connect on that level. More people to nothing party with is all I want. Nothing party fever!!!
BlAAH
"Jack of all trades, master at none."
That saying is a huge part of my life, but I don't think that's a bad thing. I like trying everything and I usually like everything I try so that makes me Jack! Aayyyo!
Life is full of paradox. That's all I will say about that.
Recently I've been so annoyed by everything and I hate that. I'm usually so open to whatever and annoying me is usually a difficult task. I think it's because I'm so anxious to leave. I just want to be gone. 7 more days.
I love people who can handle you at your worst and still love you just as much when you're in a bad mood. aka Jen. I also loooove people who can lift your spirits no matter what. aka Lee.
Peaceeee sucka free sundaeaeeeaeaeeaeeee
That saying is a huge part of my life, but I don't think that's a bad thing. I like trying everything and I usually like everything I try so that makes me Jack! Aayyyo!
Life is full of paradox. That's all I will say about that.
Recently I've been so annoyed by everything and I hate that. I'm usually so open to whatever and annoying me is usually a difficult task. I think it's because I'm so anxious to leave. I just want to be gone. 7 more days.
I love people who can handle you at your worst and still love you just as much when you're in a bad mood. aka Jen. I also loooove people who can lift your spirits no matter what. aka Lee.
Peaceeee sucka free sundaeaeeeaeaeeaeeee
Sigh
If being sighed at in disappointment isn't the worst feeling ever, then please tell me what is because being sighed at makes me want to give up more than anything. That has to be the best self-esteem killer.
I got lost (unfortunately, the story of my life) on my way to traffic school this morning so I was late and therefore was sent home. I returned home to a mother who just sighed in my face and walked away. I always feel like parents are supposed to be supportive but they seem to tear me down more often than not. Negative negative negative negative
Last night I signed up for an MTV reality show. I really want to be on it.
Peace sucka freeeeeeeeeee 7 days!
I got lost (unfortunately, the story of my life) on my way to traffic school this morning so I was late and therefore was sent home. I returned home to a mother who just sighed in my face and walked away. I always feel like parents are supposed to be supportive but they seem to tear me down more often than not. Negative negative negative negative
Last night I signed up for an MTV reality show. I really want to be on it.
Peace sucka freeeeeeeeeee 7 days!
Friday, July 18, 2008
Midnight Madness
Wow. Last night I was blown away by Heath Ledger's performance in The Dark Knight. The movie was fun to watch with my family. I love my cousins and Happy Birthday Uncle Dave, Thomas and Andrew!!
My brother and my uncle share the same birthday and my cousin Andrew's is pretty close too, so to celebrate we went to P. F. Chang's for dinner; I'm definitely a fan. After our super late dinner we went to see The Dark Knight at 12:01am. I guess it's cool to see the movie at midnight first, before everyone, but really, I think I would have rather slept. The fact that I was up until 4 because of a movie that I could have just seen the next morning is lame. It really is no benefit to me that I saw it a few hours before sane people did. Also, I was so tired that I ditched my friend this morning and that's not cool on my part.
But really, what is the point of midnight movies? Why are so many people enthralled with being first, or discovering a band before everyone, or taking ownership of things because "I saw it first!" I don't like that, let's share.
My brother and my uncle share the same birthday and my cousin Andrew's is pretty close too, so to celebrate we went to P. F. Chang's for dinner; I'm definitely a fan. After our super late dinner we went to see The Dark Knight at 12:01am. I guess it's cool to see the movie at midnight first, before everyone, but really, I think I would have rather slept. The fact that I was up until 4 because of a movie that I could have just seen the next morning is lame. It really is no benefit to me that I saw it a few hours before sane people did. Also, I was so tired that I ditched my friend this morning and that's not cool on my part.
But really, what is the point of midnight movies? Why are so many people enthralled with being first, or discovering a band before everyone, or taking ownership of things because "I saw it first!" I don't like that, let's share.
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
CHANGE
I don't know why this has been bugging me so much lately. Actually, I do.
I'm a huge fan of new things, open minds, and being truthful with people. Because I am a fan of these things, it's weird for me to try and step in the shoes of someone who isn't. I like variety.
I have a really hard time accepting that some people don't like me. I want to be friends with everyone but I don't think some people like that I'm always doing different things. I look back on some of my friends who used to be closer to me and wonder why we drifted apart. I miss them. But then I look at what they're doing with their life now and it's exactly the same as when we were friends. No change, no variety. They still have the same conversations, go the same places, talk to the same people. I see no growth when I talk to them and that makes me either not miss them at all, or it makes me want to take them out of their comfort zone and show them the amazing things life has to offer outside their little bubble.
Come explore life with me. You might think you know what you like, but how can you know what your favorite is when you haven't tried everything else?
Peace sucka freeee SUNdaaaeeeeeee
I'm a huge fan of new things, open minds, and being truthful with people. Because I am a fan of these things, it's weird for me to try and step in the shoes of someone who isn't. I like variety.
I have a really hard time accepting that some people don't like me. I want to be friends with everyone but I don't think some people like that I'm always doing different things. I look back on some of my friends who used to be closer to me and wonder why we drifted apart. I miss them. But then I look at what they're doing with their life now and it's exactly the same as when we were friends. No change, no variety. They still have the same conversations, go the same places, talk to the same people. I see no growth when I talk to them and that makes me either not miss them at all, or it makes me want to take them out of their comfort zone and show them the amazing things life has to offer outside their little bubble.
Come explore life with me. You might think you know what you like, but how can you know what your favorite is when you haven't tried everything else?
Peace sucka freeee SUNdaaaeeeeeee
different
People change a lot; I change a lot. Sometimes I feel like I don't want to look like I'm trying too hard, but inside I'm going crazy. I miss people a lot. Maybe I don't miss them, I just miss the idea of them being there. It's weird how nothing in life is constant, except for God. I love how consistent God's love is. Sometimes that's the only thing keeping me sane.
If people drift away from you is it best to let it happen and let them come back to you (if ever) or to pursue them constantly?
just a question to sleep on.
Peace sucka freeeeeeeeeeeee 10 dayz
If people drift away from you is it best to let it happen and let them come back to you (if ever) or to pursue them constantly?
just a question to sleep on.
Peace sucka freeeeeeeeeeeee 10 dayz
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Alright people
So have you ever been to a show/concert/live performance and been moved so much by the music that you just stand there completely in awe?
Sometimes I can't even dance (I KNOW) because I get so caught up in the fact that the people on stage are using instruments that are sold everywhere, but the combination of them all together makes something completely original every time. AND IT'S SO GOOOOD. How do musicians come up with these things? I am blown away by the fact that a group of people can move me so much, from goosebumps to tears, by playing notes with strings and hitting drums.
How freakin sweet is that? I love life and the fact that God has blessed us to be able to feel such a huge range of emotions.
"The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain... When you are joyous, look deep into your heart and you shall find it is only that which has given you sorrow that is giving you joy. When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight." -The Prophet
my sleepless rants.
Sometimes I can't even dance (I KNOW) because I get so caught up in the fact that the people on stage are using instruments that are sold everywhere, but the combination of them all together makes something completely original every time. AND IT'S SO GOOOOD. How do musicians come up with these things? I am blown away by the fact that a group of people can move me so much, from goosebumps to tears, by playing notes with strings and hitting drums.
How freakin sweet is that? I love life and the fact that God has blessed us to be able to feel such a huge range of emotions.
"The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain... When you are joyous, look deep into your heart and you shall find it is only that which has given you sorrow that is giving you joy. When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight." -The Prophet
my sleepless rants.
Monday, July 14, 2008
Little Girl
When men act like little girls, I want to punch someone in the face. It's not cool when I am more manly than someone with a penis.
That said, I love when things are made all better by humor and laughter. You can be as girlish as you want as long as the girlishness is followed by laughter instead of me feeling of wanting to punch someone. Then I dig it.
Anyway, so I've had this intense ear infection, that I won't go into detail about, for about 6 months. When I say intense I mean IN TENTS intense. The most cray cray ear infection you've ever seen, It won't quit! But I went to an ear specialist today, he was hilarious and I already feel like my ear's healing. Hooray for doctors who know what they're doing! The Irvine Walk In Clinic just wasn't cutting it for me... I don't trust them, and I trust just about anyone.
I am going surfing tomorrow with Jen, George, Evan and hopefully Jeff and Emma. It's going to be the most epic nothing party ever without a doubt.
12 DAYS UNTIL I LEAVE FOR WOODLEAF!!!!!!!!!!!!
Peaceeee Sucka FREE SUNDAAAeeeeeee
That said, I love when things are made all better by humor and laughter. You can be as girlish as you want as long as the girlishness is followed by laughter instead of me feeling of wanting to punch someone. Then I dig it.
Anyway, so I've had this intense ear infection, that I won't go into detail about, for about 6 months. When I say intense I mean IN TENTS intense. The most cray cray ear infection you've ever seen, It won't quit! But I went to an ear specialist today, he was hilarious and I already feel like my ear's healing. Hooray for doctors who know what they're doing! The Irvine Walk In Clinic just wasn't cutting it for me... I don't trust them, and I trust just about anyone.
I am going surfing tomorrow with Jen, George, Evan and hopefully Jeff and Emma. It's going to be the most epic nothing party ever without a doubt.
12 DAYS UNTIL I LEAVE FOR WOODLEAF!!!!!!!!!!!!
Peaceeee Sucka FREE SUNDAAAeeeeeee
Easyyyy
I feel like it takes a lot for me to become angry. I'm not sure if it would make you mad if you woke up early to go to work, drove there and then they told you that you were working in 8 hours instead. Maybe it would, but maybe you're like me and any excuse to drive around is amazing. I love driving, gas prices slaayyy meeee!
I don't like being a pain, ever. Do I sometimes trade my comfort for others to be comfortable? Probably, but is that so bad?
Peeeeace sucka free sundaeeeEEE
I don't like being a pain, ever. Do I sometimes trade my comfort for others to be comfortable? Probably, but is that so bad?
Peeeeace sucka free sundaeeeEEE
Sunday, July 13, 2008
Mehhh
I don't really have anything to say tonight.
Sometimes it's best to bask in the silence.
I love you guys, whoever is reading this, seriously all I feel is love in my heart right now.
I love Jesus.
Peace sucka free work all weeeeeek daaaaang do work
Sometimes it's best to bask in the silence.
I love you guys, whoever is reading this, seriously all I feel is love in my heart right now.
I love Jesus.
Peace sucka free work all weeeeeek daaaaang do work
Epic
I love Aushua. Those men are amazing people. I also love The American Gypsies! Surfing with Evan will be awesome! I'm so stoked on the new doors that have been opened to me now that I've stopped playing water polo. I miss it sometimes, but I feel like it was the right time to move on. Now I can experience so many more things and I'm not stressed, ahhhh! LG, baby. Life's Good.
The Living Suns' cd release show was fun! But I don't understand why people think moshing and punching each other in the face to The Living Suns is cool. Not cool guys.
More and more every day the thought of escaping for a month takes over my mind. I'm so excited for work crew at Woodleaf. I love getting away from everyday life and just taking time to have a reality check. I'm stoked to come home just in time to start my senior year, grounded, humbled and one with everything. Camp does that to me, especially when the focus is all on God. It's so easy to get lost in our world and lose sight of God and I feel like I've been struggling in keeping touch with Christ recently. This month away of intense focus on Him will bring me new ways of focus, I'm sure.
I love everybody. I love making new friends and realizing connections you have between people.
PEacE Sucka FrEEEE SundaEEEEE
The Living Suns' cd release show was fun! But I don't understand why people think moshing and punching each other in the face to The Living Suns is cool. Not cool guys.
More and more every day the thought of escaping for a month takes over my mind. I'm so excited for work crew at Woodleaf. I love getting away from everyday life and just taking time to have a reality check. I'm stoked to come home just in time to start my senior year, grounded, humbled and one with everything. Camp does that to me, especially when the focus is all on God. It's so easy to get lost in our world and lose sight of God and I feel like I've been struggling in keeping touch with Christ recently. This month away of intense focus on Him will bring me new ways of focus, I'm sure.
I love everybody. I love making new friends and realizing connections you have between people.
PEacE Sucka FrEEEE SundaEEEEE
Saturday, July 12, 2008
Perfection
I am perfect in my imperfections.
It makes me sad when people try to act perfect in every aspect of life. That has to be so hard! Putting up a front of perfectness all the time, covering up all your weak spots, dang, that's hard work. It makes me sad when I realize my imperfections and try to confide in someone with what I'm struggling with and they turn around and say "Oh, that sucks" then act like they're better than me.
I don't know if that makes sense, but why can't everyone just be there for everyone else? What about acting like you're better than someone gives you piece of mind? I know you're not perfect and I'm not saying that to be mean, I'm saying that to be real. "Perfection," whatever that might be, is unattainable.
Your imperfections and weaknesses make you unique, why not embrace yourself?
peace sucka free saturday
p.s.
show tonight, I'm pumped!
woodleaf in 2 weeks, I'm RIDICULOUSLY EXCITED!
It makes me sad when people try to act perfect in every aspect of life. That has to be so hard! Putting up a front of perfectness all the time, covering up all your weak spots, dang, that's hard work. It makes me sad when I realize my imperfections and try to confide in someone with what I'm struggling with and they turn around and say "Oh, that sucks" then act like they're better than me.
I don't know if that makes sense, but why can't everyone just be there for everyone else? What about acting like you're better than someone gives you piece of mind? I know you're not perfect and I'm not saying that to be mean, I'm saying that to be real. "Perfection," whatever that might be, is unattainable.
Your imperfections and weaknesses make you unique, why not embrace yourself?
peace sucka free saturday
p.s.
show tonight, I'm pumped!
woodleaf in 2 weeks, I'm RIDICULOUSLY EXCITED!
Friday, July 11, 2008
Thursday, July 10, 2008
Oh my goodness
I just sent a very exciting email. I hope the answer is just as exciting!!!!!!!!
I am going surfing tomorrow for the first time ever with my amazing friend Jeffrey! That will soon be me on a board!!!
We watched The Ruins last night..... lame. So freeakin lame.
This weekend an amazing show is coming up. On Saturday, not only is it Liz Magdaleno's 18th birthday(!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!), but it marks the album release of The Living Suns! They are playing with so many amazing bands, it is going to be an epic night of amazing music!!!
The show is at the House of Blues in Anaheim so if you're around please come out to this! You will not regret it! You will have eargasms all night long!
That is all.
PeaCe SuCka Freeeeeeeee SundaeeeEEE!!!!
I am going surfing tomorrow for the first time ever with my amazing friend Jeffrey! That will soon be me on a board!!!
We watched The Ruins last night..... lame. So freeakin lame.
This weekend an amazing show is coming up. On Saturday, not only is it Liz Magdaleno's 18th birthday(!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!), but it marks the album release of The Living Suns! They are playing with so many amazing bands, it is going to be an epic night of amazing music!!!
The show is at the House of Blues in Anaheim so if you're around please come out to this! You will not regret it! You will have eargasms all night long!
That is all.
PeaCe SuCka Freeeeeeeee SundaeeeEEE!!!!
crump
I want to be her. Daaaang! Look at her!
I try.
Now on a more serious note, I don't understand mystery. Why do many people strive to be mysterious? What is so appealing about mystery? Why do I have no fascination with being mysterious myself?
A lot of people I have been coming in contact with recently loooove being mysterious and all that crap, but I really don't like that. It's like they have something to hide, or a part of their life they'd rather not share with me and other people. I feel like I just lay everything out there and I don't really hold anything back. If you ask me a question, you'll get an honest answer with lots of details; I don't really hold back. Is that unappealing?
PEACE SUCKA freeeeee ice cream sundaaaaeeeeE
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
thank you for smoking
I've actually never seen that movie, but now that I mention it, why do people think smoking is cool? When it's 90 degrees outside, is it awesome inhaling tar into your lungs? Can someone answer that for me, because I don't really get it. I've never smoked before so maybe I just don't know anything, but that really does not sound appealing.
What is the cool-factor about smoking anyways? It's ridiculously unhealthy in so many ways, and plus it's addicting. Do people think it makes them seem older? Grown up? Mature? Maybe some people see it that way, but when I see young people smoking I see them throwing their lives away. "I'm a social smoker," yeah yeah yeah yeah tell me that again in 15 years when you live off cigarettes and have lung cancer!
What's so hard about saying "no thanks"?
Peace SUCKA FREEEEEEEE SundaaaaeeeeeeeeeeE!!!!!
p.s. PEER PRESSURE SUCKS. lame squad. Just say no, kids!
What is the cool-factor about smoking anyways? It's ridiculously unhealthy in so many ways, and plus it's addicting. Do people think it makes them seem older? Grown up? Mature? Maybe some people see it that way, but when I see young people smoking I see them throwing their lives away. "I'm a social smoker," yeah yeah yeah yeah tell me that again in 15 years when you live off cigarettes and have lung cancer!
What's so hard about saying "no thanks"?
Peace SUCKA FREEEEEEEE SundaaaaeeeeeeeeeeE!!!!!
p.s. PEER PRESSURE SUCKS. lame squad. Just say no, kids!
nothing
Such a simple concept. I love doing nothing. Nothing parties are my current favorite thing to do. If you would like to know, nothing parties consist of sitting, laying, or even running around and just breathing, laughing, and making good conversation. Nothing to it really.
I genuinely admire people that can sit around for long periods of time and have intelligent conversation. I feel like not everyone is capable of doing this. I've met plenty of people that would call nothing parties boring or lame or anything other than amazing. To be able to sit and just talk all day, a person has to be content with himself and confident in who he is, or he will be left confused. They must have an open mind or else they will be left fuming. Jen and I are the queens of nothing parties. We have them every day at least once a day. It feels so good to talk about deeper thoughts instead of talking trash or other shallow things. It would be nice to find some other nothing-fans who would like to join us though. When you pretty much agree with every word that comes out of someone's mouth, there aren't many mind-expanding or challenging moments.
I just watched Mean Girls again tonight. I like that movie but it bothers me. I guess the point of it isn't to be realistic, but seriously? The line, "There's a 30% chance that it's raining right now," is the last straw.
peace SUCkaaa frEEE SundaaaaeeeeeeeeEEEEeeee
I genuinely admire people that can sit around for long periods of time and have intelligent conversation. I feel like not everyone is capable of doing this. I've met plenty of people that would call nothing parties boring or lame or anything other than amazing. To be able to sit and just talk all day, a person has to be content with himself and confident in who he is, or he will be left confused. They must have an open mind or else they will be left fuming. Jen and I are the queens of nothing parties. We have them every day at least once a day. It feels so good to talk about deeper thoughts instead of talking trash or other shallow things. It would be nice to find some other nothing-fans who would like to join us though. When you pretty much agree with every word that comes out of someone's mouth, there aren't many mind-expanding or challenging moments.
I just watched Mean Girls again tonight. I like that movie but it bothers me. I guess the point of it isn't to be realistic, but seriously? The line, "There's a 30% chance that it's raining right now," is the last straw.
peace SUCkaaa frEEE SundaaaaeeeeeeeeEEEEeeee
Monday, July 7, 2008
laziness & impatience
Those two components fuel our economy.
I work in a restaurant and I see both of these words acted out every day. One reason why people go out to eat is because they don't want to cook for themselves; They're having a moment of laziness. Don't get me wrong, I believe that being laziness can be a perfectly fine quality. At times I'm one of the laziest people you'll ever meet, but I'm also very patient. I believe that our society is a combination of both laziness and impatience, which don't balance out very well. If you want to be lazy and take the easy road out of things, I feel like you have to be able to have patience in the situation or else harsh emotions come into play.
that is all.
I work in a restaurant and I see both of these words acted out every day. One reason why people go out to eat is because they don't want to cook for themselves; They're having a moment of laziness. Don't get me wrong, I believe that being laziness can be a perfectly fine quality. At times I'm one of the laziest people you'll ever meet, but I'm also very patient. I believe that our society is a combination of both laziness and impatience, which don't balance out very well. If you want to be lazy and take the easy road out of things, I feel like you have to be able to have patience in the situation or else harsh emotions come into play.
that is all.
Sunday, July 6, 2008
really
I'm a huge fan of change, especially the change of physical things that don't even matter. I love when people are confident enough in themselves that when they have an idea in their head they act it out and follow through with it, no matter what people around them say. I love when someone is confident enough in their own thoughts and views that when someone tries to peer pressure them into something, they are just as confident saying "no thanks" the millionth time as much as they were the first time. I admire people who are confident saying no or telling someone the truth even when it means they might lose a friend because honestly, if you feel the need to lie to someone to keep their friendship, that is not a friend worth having.
I like following through with the ideas in my head. Sometimes I like following through with these ideas just to see who sticks around. For example, I cut my hair short and a lot of people acted differently toward me and a few people stopped talking to me. People who I saw as close friends just stopped interacting with me, and that is a huge reality check on how people will not always be there or be the person you think they are no matter how much you want them to be. I have the best friend anyone could ever ask for, an amazing family, and God loving me with all his heart. A few kids in high school who stop talking to me are not going to negatively affect me.
There are many people who did stick around though and more people I meet every day. The real friends don't care about the physical stuff, they only care about the soul.
Fitting into the mold of society is comfortable for a lot of people, but it gives me the most uncomfortable feeling I've ever felt. I would rather be myself and have only one good friend than be like everyone else and have a lot of fake friendships. I'm not saying I'm completely original or anything, but I just do what I like. Love me or hate me and all that blah blah blah.
Peeeeace SUCKA free Sunday
I like following through with the ideas in my head. Sometimes I like following through with these ideas just to see who sticks around. For example, I cut my hair short and a lot of people acted differently toward me and a few people stopped talking to me. People who I saw as close friends just stopped interacting with me, and that is a huge reality check on how people will not always be there or be the person you think they are no matter how much you want them to be. I have the best friend anyone could ever ask for, an amazing family, and God loving me with all his heart. A few kids in high school who stop talking to me are not going to negatively affect me.
There are many people who did stick around though and more people I meet every day. The real friends don't care about the physical stuff, they only care about the soul.
Fitting into the mold of society is comfortable for a lot of people, but it gives me the most uncomfortable feeling I've ever felt. I would rather be myself and have only one good friend than be like everyone else and have a lot of fake friendships. I'm not saying I'm completely original or anything, but I just do what I like. Love me or hate me and all that blah blah blah.
Peeeeace SUCKA free Sunday
Saturday, July 5, 2008
La Breeze
I do not like Los Angeles very much.
I do not like how silly things cost money.
I do not like the actions some people take while intoxicated.
So I guess my "I like everything" statement has been proven incorrect and I am a hypocrite.
However, I do like Aushua and the men in the band. They all rule and make good music. The men of Aushua and my amazing conversations with Jen are the only reason I like being awake sometimes.. such as tonight. I freakin love Jennifer and the way that we always end up having the best conversations ever when we're together. Nothing is fake between us and I dig that. I want to know more people who would do nothing with me all day and say it was the best day ever.
I do not like how silly things cost money.
I do not like the actions some people take while intoxicated.
So I guess my "I like everything" statement has been proven incorrect and I am a hypocrite.
However, I do like Aushua and the men in the band. They all rule and make good music. The men of Aushua and my amazing conversations with Jen are the only reason I like being awake sometimes.. such as tonight. I freakin love Jennifer and the way that we always end up having the best conversations ever when we're together. Nothing is fake between us and I dig that. I want to know more people who would do nothing with me all day and say it was the best day ever.
lies
I hate lying. I'm a horrible liar. baahhhhhhh! Lies!
I'm excited to go to work crew for a month this summer. I feel like a month away from this world and all it's craziness will give me good direction and focus. A month of pure, godly goodness will put my head back on straight.
I want to do a ywam trip after high school.
PEACE sucka freee sundaaaae
I'm excited to go to work crew for a month this summer. I feel like a month away from this world and all it's craziness will give me good direction and focus. A month of pure, godly goodness will put my head back on straight.
I want to do a ywam trip after high school.
PEACE sucka freee sundaaaae
2% doubt
Sometimes, when my mind's on a really cool tangent, I can't sleep because my thoughts are running like crazy through my head.
My mind got stuck on this tangent last night at this sweeeeeet bible study when faith and doubt were briefly discussed. Doubt is normally not seen as a good thing but I feel it's just human nature that we can't control. I believe doubt is normal, healthy and can be seen as responsible.
Doubt is a part of faith. Faith isn't waking up every morning to God's face coming out of the clouds saying "Good morning, sons and daughters! Believe in me!" Faith is waking up every morning, seeing God's invisible hand on the world and your choice to trust in him despite the doubts that are there.
I was looking at these papers I have on my wall and there's this one from I think 3 years ago when I went to camp.
it says:
GODISNOWHERE
God is nowhere.
God is now here.
Paradox: a statement that is seemingly contradictory or opposed to common sense and yet is perhaps true.
God pretty much goes against the tiny human brain's common sense, but he's God and he can do that. Sure, there are going to be doubts because a lot about God and why he does things isn't clear at times, but let these doubts strengthen you and heal your faith.
my two cents. Feel free to tell me I'm wrong, or to agree with me, or to tell me this makes no sense and I'm insane in the brain. I like talking about things like this with people.
Now maybe I'll sleep.
If you took the time to read this, here's a little shout out for you
PEACE SUCKA freeee sundaeeeeeEEEEE
My mind got stuck on this tangent last night at this sweeeeeet bible study when faith and doubt were briefly discussed. Doubt is normally not seen as a good thing but I feel it's just human nature that we can't control. I believe doubt is normal, healthy and can be seen as responsible.
Doubt is a part of faith. Faith isn't waking up every morning to God's face coming out of the clouds saying "Good morning, sons and daughters! Believe in me!" Faith is waking up every morning, seeing God's invisible hand on the world and your choice to trust in him despite the doubts that are there.
I was looking at these papers I have on my wall and there's this one from I think 3 years ago when I went to camp.
it says:
GODISNOWHERE
God is nowhere.
God is now here.
Paradox: a statement that is seemingly contradictory or opposed to common sense and yet is perhaps true.
God pretty much goes against the tiny human brain's common sense, but he's God and he can do that. Sure, there are going to be doubts because a lot about God and why he does things isn't clear at times, but let these doubts strengthen you and heal your faith.
my two cents. Feel free to tell me I'm wrong, or to agree with me, or to tell me this makes no sense and I'm insane in the brain. I like talking about things like this with people.
Now maybe I'll sleep.
If you took the time to read this, here's a little shout out for you
PEACE SUCKA freeee sundaeeeeeEEEEE
Freedom Fest
So I decided I needed a little place for all my random thoughts to go and this is it. I'm excited to look back on old posts when they're old and think of when they were fresh and new.
I am almost 18 but I don't want to be. I am almost out of high school but I don't want to be. I feel like I'll be ready for those things when they are closer.
Recently Jen and I have been talking about the future and moving in together and I'm getting excited about that even though it will be in a year or more. Just the idea of it is so refreshing. I like change. I like people.
Today Jen and I went to eVocal and mingled and met some pretty awesome people. I decided I like baking for others. I will bake you cookies!
PEACE SUCKA freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee sundaaeEEEEeEeeeee
I am almost 18 but I don't want to be. I am almost out of high school but I don't want to be. I feel like I'll be ready for those things when they are closer.
Recently Jen and I have been talking about the future and moving in together and I'm getting excited about that even though it will be in a year or more. Just the idea of it is so refreshing. I like change. I like people.
Today Jen and I went to eVocal and mingled and met some pretty awesome people. I decided I like baking for others. I will bake you cookies!
PEACE SUCKA freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee sundaaeEEEEeEeeeee
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