Sunday, November 30, 2008

it's late

It doesn't feel as late as it is.

I am so content with where I am. I love that feeling. When I realize that I'm exactly where God wants me to be and that he's using me no matter where I am or who I'm with, I'm so content.

I have been doing what I love all weekend. I've been hanging out with people I love and riding bikes and dancing. This has been such a good weekend. Friday was the release date of all the stress my family has been building up and it feels sooo good to be over with.

I'm happy I'm back into blogging. It feels good to write to everyone who wants to read this.

I wish I didn't think about him all the time. I have been so happy with just loving Jesus and now I'm thinking about a boy and I'm kind of bummed! Maybe God wants me to be thinking about him, who knows.

I am still in need of a planner. I can't wait to get my hands on one. I'm excited to keep my life more in order.

Tomorrow night I'm going to Lauren Johnson's show! She is an amazing young woman with pure talent. You miiiight want to think about going to her shows while they're only $10. I know they won't be forever.

My family has been obsessed with the show Weeds lately. They all sit in front of the tv and watch their season # whatever on dvd. I sit in the other room and all I hear is cursing and crap. I don't like how all that junk has become normal in our culture. I don't like it. Family bonding over that? have fun with that one, fam.

Want to be AWESOME??!?! burn me a cd! I'm in such a music rut right now. I want to get out of it.

I love you all. I really have so much love for you. Ecclesiastes 3:12 "I know that there is nothing better for people than to be happy and do good while they live." I really believe in that. Let's be happy !!!!!!!!!!!!

<333333 Peace sucka freeeeeeeeeeeeEEeeeeee sundae

Saturday, November 29, 2008


One of my great friends told me the other day that she always reads my blogs and is sad I haven't updated in a while. I'm sad too. I have lots of things to say, but few words to say it in and little time to type it. I think I will form a list. So, here it goes!

1. I got my bike! I love it. Critical mass last night was really fun and I'm excited to get in shaaape and ride everywhere.

2. God's timing and my timing are two things that I hope to one day get in sync. Sometimes I feel super-connected with people when I first meet them. To me that is one of the most amazing feelings I have ever felt. I love meeting someone and knowing you're on the same page about so many things without having to say anything. I feel like that about almost everyone who volunteers for Young Life, and this amazing guy I met last month. I met him one day and the next day he moved away. Timing is a funny thing, but I know God's not done revealing Himself to me and showing me why he lets certain people into my life.

3. Jen and I are trying to find a modeling agency.

4. I feel like I'm making no progress. This world is so meaningless. In the end, I hope my parents are happy with me. For now they're disappointed with what I want to do.

5. Tattoo: on my side. a verse forming an ichthus, but I don't know what verse yet. Still contemplating.

6. I want a speaker backpack! :::: I just stopped this to check out ebay for a speaker backpack... and I just bought one hahahaha. SOoo next time you see me riding I'll be wearing a green frog backpack with headphones on it.. but the headphones are really speakers! Haha! Best $0.01 I ever spent!

7. I'm going out to buy a planner right now so I can plan my life. Hookayyyy!!!!!!

8. I'm excited to go to San Fransisco in the spring and Chicago in the winter!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love you all! Peace sucka freee sundaeee!

Sunday, November 9, 2008

It feels like forever

Hello blog world. It's been over a week now but I am happy to once again be sharing my thoughts to whoever wants to read them.

Recently I have been thinking about age and maturity. They somewhat go hand-in-hand, but there are many cases where the maturity that stereotypically coincides with one's age does not accurately represent their actual level of maturity. The person's maturity could often be higher than the stereotypical level. It could also, even more often, be less. I believe I am of average maturity in many areas of my life, less-than-average in other areas, and higher than in a few others.

I was about to list examples, but I don't want to anymore. My mind was just thinking about the question What or who defines normal? Where do these stereotypes come from? Why are so many people afraid to think a different thought or to step outside their comfort zone? I know I'm scared. I try to challenge myself every day, and I fail every day. I try to let my mind be as free and creative as it can possibly be. With every day I let my mind expand into foreign lands, the more possibilities I can see forming right before my eyes. These changes in the way I think and the way I live are exciting! My wish for you, whoever is reading this, is that you would know how powerful your mind is. Don't limit yourself and don't let other people tell you what to think or how to be. You need to know that you are in control of the way you act and the way you think. Just because the popular perception of beauty isn't you (it isn't me either... it's no one really. It's completely fake.) BUt, just because the PopulaR and "accepted" view of beauty isn't you or me doesn't mean you should be hating on your body or the way you were made!! Think of how freakin boring life would be if we were all perfect!! THAT is the beauty I see in life! Imperfections and 'blemishes' are what I thrive for! I want people to know that they are exactly how they are made to be. God wouldn't change a hair on your head or one thing about you! The imperfection that the world sees in you is the perfection God sees in you! Embrace it!!! If you're tall, flaunt it! If you're short, heck yeah you are!

I really believe in that. Let your mind wander around that for a little bit.

ALso, This world doesn't even matter. ahhahaha I think about that all the time. I don't mean we should all just give up on living because it doesn't matter... that's not what I mean. Some people are meant to be the way our world is, the way america is. I just have a hard time believing that we're ALL meant to be that way. SOoo much pressure is put on high school students to have the "Perfect American Lifestyle". Graduate high school, go to college, get a degree, use it in a career ... somehow, and raise your kids to do the same. WHY IS THAT NORMAL!>!??!?! It kills me!!!

Hahah thank you if you read this. I love you. And I still love you if you didn't!

Peaceee sucka freeee Sunday night(: